2010

In 2010 I...

Learned a lot about love. Missed my sister and Layla more than I knew I could. Became a far better cook. Conquered fears. Encountered Jesus in ways I never had. Got a raise. Distrusted God's plan. Renewed my trust in God's plan. Worried. Rejoiced. Felt like I was on the highest mountain. Felt like I was in the lowest valley. Laughed until I couldn't breathe. Cried myself to sleep. Became more dependant than independant. Took on every battle holding my husband's hand. Let him fight a few of them for me. Felt like a daughter. Felt more honor than ever. Got cable. Watched too much cable. Enjoyed watching too much cable. Paid way too many bills. Turned 23. Watched Layla turn 2. Watched Jonathan turn 22. Celebrated every holiday with my husband, and enjoyed every holiday more than I ever have. Looked upon the future with fear. Looked upon the future with great joy and anticipation. Took up for myself. Didn't speak up enough. Smiled every morning when Jonathan's alarm went off as "Faithfully" by Journey. Pondered deeply about the dreams in my heart. Let some dreams go. Let the Lord breathe life onto new dreams. Played in the rain. Saved a lot. Spent the savings. Hung pictures on walls. Let roots grow for the first time. Started painting. Made wise decisions. Made dumb decisions. Grew up some. Tried new foods. Made new friends. Lost old friends. Played in the snow. Realized just how important family is. Learned real family sometimes isn't blood. Finally learned lessons I should have learned a long time ago. Let the Lord teach me the basics again. Fell in love with Him again in the process. Put entirely too much pressure on myself as a wife. Saw my husband somehow adore me in all my imperfections. Had wounds healed that I have carried in my heart over 20 years. Felt free. Solidified in my heart that my past would never haunt me again. Became obsessed with Catan. Felt completely comfortable in who I am and who God has made me to be. Saw my husband become a man in so many ways. Didn't use my degree. Praised God with friends when His promises for them were fulfilled. Sat in sorrow with them when they weren't. Cringed every month while I paid my student loan payment. Desperately wanted a pet. Got a kiss goodnight every night before I went to sleep. Went around the mountain again. Held so many babies. Felt love and peace every single time I did. Spent too much money on clothes. Spent too much money eating out. Missed Kenya. Cried many times over missing Kenya. Dreamt like crazy. Went on vacation with my little sister. Didn't read enough. Missed being a student, surprisingly enough. Changed my hair color more times than I can count. Loved well. Loved badly. Learned to love better. Watched so many promises be fulfilled. Cleaned my apartment more times than any sane person would. Got sick a lot. Found myself in so many ways. Became a little more like Jesus...

I call it a sucess! Here's to another year of growth and change. Whatever You want God, I'm ready! Your will be done.